Emerging

I have been wearing a rut in the floor boards of my living room from repeating the Sisyphean loop of newborn care for the past four months: diaper, feed, soothe; diaper, feed, soothe; round and round the clock for days and months on end until I looked at the calendar and it was nearly August. […]

Old Notions Endure

I carved out the time to say something today because there are, inevitably, readers out there who need some lifting. There are no easy ways to cope with this day, so the best I can offer is┬áthis post from Two Weeks Wait and a second helping of my Mother’s Day post from two years ago, […]

Three New Lives

My sweet but forgetful retiree-next-door has invented names for my littles. For years he has called me “April” and clung to it with persistence despite many subtle but deliberate corrections. This is all part of his pattern: building off the first initial to a substitution, which has extended to “Rosy” and “Ellen,” the newest members […]

Quickly, While They Sleep

Things I “knew” but plainly admitted were beyond comprehension until they have been lived: It is a crazy and instantaneous kind of love. The story of the birth is that I nearly had a full on panic attack in the OR. There is so much noise and commotion, bright lights, nine different people all working […]

Identity Shift

Not to say that motherhood isn’t work. Surely, it is an imposing and critical job that, done well, helps keep society afloat, but there was something surreal and unnerving about driving away from the high school where I teach in a car packed with milk crates full of books and binders, markers, stacks of unwrapped […]

To My Daughters

Mes Cheries, There is a blissful unreality to the fact that you are mere weeks from entering the world following such an epic quest to become your mother, but I can feel the round bulk of your heads and bottoms pressing against the walls of my abdomen while little feet and hands prod at my […]

Oops-Pregnant

It happened to me: the pregnancy news from someone in my life in this new phase, where the sting has been blunted by a room full of nursery furniture and an imminent birth. My best friend missed her period and peed on a stick two days ago. She and her boyfriend of six months are […]